Yes, I'm Unworthy. Now What?

Jesus left us with a gift: the Holy Spirit. And this gift helps us be the better person God wants us to be.

"But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you." John 14:26

So daily I ask the Holy Spirit to be with me, guide me throughout the day. Because I know that if left to my own strength and knowledge, I will fall into the same sins, the same idol worship.

No one can fight off the idol worship without the Lord's help. Transformation, deliverance, comes only from the Lord.

"And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit." 2 Corinthians 3:18

So after months of thinking myself a failure because I can't change my heart' I still can't give up that idol worship no matter how hard I try. I realize I've failed because I've been trying to do this on my own. I'm fighting a power, Satan, who is stronger than me. But I have an advocate who is stronger than any demon. He is the Creator of all. He can move the mountains. He can change my heart and remind me to turn from the idol, as long as I listen to Him. See, we still have that free will thing so WE still need to make the right decisions. But He'll be that voice that convicts you before you act. Will you listen to it?

And I pray...

"The Lord your God will circumcise your heart and the hearts of your descendants so that you may love him with all your heart and with all your soul." Deuteronomy 30:6

Lord, please circumcise my heart and the hearts of my family. Remove the idol worship and habits to sin. Help us hear your voice and feel the conviction of the Holy Spirit. And give us the strength to make the right choices. Please keep Satan and his poisonous arrows from our hearts and minds. I long to love you with ALL of my heart and soul. Through your mighty Son, Jesus, I pray. Amen.

Let The Light Shine

Dear Lord,

I know that You alone are the light and in You there is no darkness. I want to walk in the light with You and leave behind the darkness, where I once walked and played without You.

I want to walk in the light as You are in the light and where I can have fellowship with others and the blood of Jesus, Your Son, cleanses us all.

I have sinned and continue to sin and confess my sins now. I know that you will be faithful and just to forgive my sins and cleanse me from all unrighteousness.

Thank you, Lord, for the blessings you bestow on me and for bringing me on this journey. Through the Holy Spirit's assistance, I wish my faith to grow stronger so I will learn to trust you completely with my life.

Prayer based on 1 John 1:5-10:

(5) This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. (6) If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. (7) But if we walk in the light as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. (8) If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. (9) If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (10) If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

Turning Away from a Life I'm Embarrassed About

Dear God,

I remember my mistakes and my aimless wandering which made my life useless and without meaning. Such memories make me wince with embarrassment and shame. As I remember them, my soul is downcast within me.

Yet, this I call to mind and therefore have hope. Because of Your great love I am not consumed by my past, for Your compassions never fail. They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness. And so each morning I start with a clean slate to rebuild my life in the image You have set through Jesus Christ and the new covenant.

You are good to those whose hope is in you and to the one who seeks You. So it is with all my heart that I hope in You and seek You. Please don't let me be distracted by earthly treasures. I pray to keep my eyes on You, O Lord, God Almighty.

I ask for the assistance of the Holy Spirit this day, and each day. Through Christ, Our Lord. Amen.

Based on Lamentations 3:19-23, 25...

I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I will remember them, and my soul is down cast within me. Yet, this I call to mind and therefore I have hope. Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness.
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The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks Him.